i absolutely can't stop thinking about him....
i'm in school now waitin for my next class...
every time i'm not busy... i catch myself thinking about him
like right now...

it feels so childish really...
but i love the feeling...
the butterflies in my tummy, the smile on my face...
hay... its been so long since a guy has had me feeling this way
can't believe it...
he's been my crush since 3rd year high...
and it's still him now...

well maybe its coz its meant to be just that...
just a crush... forever...
with all the kilig moments... with all the time we've hanged out
there's something in me thats telling me....
we're bound to be JUST FRIENDS...
but even then....
the smiles, the chillouts, the crazy moments...
are enough...

what a weekend! it was amazingly messed up! haha! but alls cool!
this weekend will go down in my barkada's history books!

saturday:
everything wasn't going as planned but everything turned out more fabulous than i could have ever expected...

i was able to go to my *crush's* birthday party... fab!
i completely gave up on going there but my sista's got me goin!
then i was suppose to go home early to my house...
but due to the blur of things... i ended up sleepin over at diobelle's!

whatever happened there... i'll never forget!!!!
my dear sistas... ya know i can never get mad at you guys!!
love ya so mucH!!!

i know it was a really stupid accident.... apology accepted!!

i'm still tryin to figure out if i could survive that text message...
would never have the guts to say that!
on the good side... it was kinda nice that it happened... and so what if that message was as good as tellin him "im crushin on you bigtime"... biggeee... i really am anyway even if i have no intentions of letting him know... he was nice enough to give such a sweet reply!! its not that bad....

oh yeah! not even in my dreams could i ever imagine that him sending me that!!!

im still feeling embarrassed but i really could care less...
life is too sweet!

*please i just hope my crush wont ever get to read this... dont knwo how i'll live that one up...*

i intentionally skipped school today...
just woke up with no desire whatsoever to go to admu...
i'm just so sick of it...
school is killing me!

i wonder if going to school schould really be this stressful...
the workload, accounting, law... incompetent people... argh!
i used to like school somehow... despite all the torture and shit...
but i'm seriously not enjoying anything anymore...

is it worth it?!

i'm seriously contemplating dropping out of school already....
not for good maybe just for a year...
i think the monotony of it is what's messing it up....

wha... i better get a grip of myself before i break down...
get me outta here~
dang school!

another online thing i can tinker with while wastin time... fabulous! bloggin... i dont remember the last time i blogged.... anyway i'm still trying to figure out how this whole thing works... which wont take long i hope... be bloggin crazy soon! anyway gotta go for now.... i'm procrastinating with school again! whats new?!